[27 Jul 2004|02:27pm] wow I haven't updated this in a longgg time... as you all should know I don't have the internet @ home cuz' well my Moms cool and doesn't believe in it anymore whoot for that? I miss all my friends @ my Dads as for the friends here whos real and whos fake? Hmmm I Don't even know anymore do to the fact that I've been fucked over so much. Nicole is one of my true 'best' friends... I don't like the way this summer has been honestly its kind of been a waste. I miss my sister sooo much, my Dad, Karrie, and pretty much the whole family. I don't know lately its been hard for me to be w/o everyone for so long. My Moms doing a lot of work around the house which is nice I'm helping out, she seems happy besides everythings going bad (car, truck, & boat) ha she still has a smile on her face. I've been hanging out a lot with Nicole & Renee and such I Guess those 2 the most. I hung out with Kuhny last night... Random Thought *Kyles A Fuck* Yuppp... OH well life has gone on :) I'm happy... Brandon and I well enough said <3 I'm going to go though write more later probably when on vaca =) =) I'm so happy 8-6-8-17:) yupppp me post comment

[08 Jun 2004|04:01pm] [ mood | sad ] I got into a car accident :( She totaled the car |Jessica that is| ugh... my neck and back are fucked up and I have this huge bump on my knee... whooot for that not. I have to keep icing it and stuff they had me on ty 3 and then switched it to vike cuz' it was making me sick and musle relaxers...hmmm well I'll never get in a car with her again... we went on a wild adventure through the woods... yup :( <3u.. post comment

[30 May 2004|11:22pm] I need to vent because you know what right now I'm beyond confused on what to do. Brandon's at that rave thing all weekend and yeah I guess that says enough he thinks I'm this jealous g/f when he doesn't understand that I'm just scared, scared of getting hurt... I don't think he realizes that I had my heart broken into two and am still recovering from that. I'm not scared I have all the trust in the world with him.. like I said I'm just scared... I'm so sick and tired of getting hurt. Honestly I'm scared to get to emotionally into this cuz' of all the hupla Kyle put me through. I'm talking to Krista right now which helps a lot, and I talked to Britney today about it while she was here, and Ja Ja. Then schools out in 4 days which shall be nice, except I hope this summer is as good as '03 was. I have all the memorys of me and Kyle... ugh you know hes always going to be a part of me which kind of sucks. I dont know theres a lot of things I could vent about, but fuck it I'll just let it add up inside of me. -Leah </3 post comment

[29 May 2004|10:04pm] I haven't updated this in awhile I guess I should do that. Umm Brandon and I are still together... hes at a demf for the weekend I'm not taking that to well? Ha yeah fuck it whatever. I have been spending a lot of time with him lately... Washington sucked so bad, worst trip I have ever went on I must say I ran out of money for food... and guess what I HAD NO MOM OR DAD TO HELP ME! :( yeah not cool. I had to stop playing soccer... yeah not fun sitting out of the game while everyone else is playing :( good season though ladies! Uhh I'm @ my Dads right now waiting for Ja Ja to call me probably going to sleep cuz' I had about 1 1/2 sleep last night... wow yeah. Ok I'm done updating this I'm kind of annoyed and pissed and sad... -leah post comment

[09 May 2004|08:14am] [ mood | creative ] [ music | some love shit ] These are my confessions: I'm sick of fake people I don't know whos real and whos fake so sick of being lied to this hurtin' stuff needs to go away cuz' honestly I don't like being sad I love Brandon, I honestly do with my whole heart. I never thought I'd say I love you again then something told me I could put down my walls of fear and stop blocking everything that could hurt me out my dad I don't feel like writing about it, but we all know what I'm talking about. people change, go from your best friend to a complete fuck up. ok I needed to get that off my chest happy mothers day! Mom, I love you to death I don't know what I'd do w/o you! You make me who I am today, you are honestly my best friend. Through good and the bad... your always here for me and I feel like I can tell you anything. Thank's for everything you've done for me cuz' we know you bend over backwards for me! :) post comment

stop drop kaboom [08 May 2004|08:32pm] Talita's gone =( wow it sucks. her last night was ok besides Tiff.. hmph. last night I was with Brandon&Mandie! it was fun :] I'm up at Brandon's again.. hes sick so I took care of him today :[ I had a car wash today for the D.C trip.. by the end of it I was SO wet I could barely take it my boobs kept poping out my shirt was so wet. Brandon's watching the game so I'm on here I think I'm chillen up here tonight and Mandie is coming over too? Hopefully. c'ya post comment

[06 May 2004|05:56pm] I've had an ok week, didn't have school today or tomorrow :) whoot for that. Uhh tonights Talita's last night =( I'm going to miss her so much. Tonight her and Jess are coming to my house and we are having a drunken night ;) whoot her last night will be a blast =) I'm up at Brandon's right now I have been here all day... I love spending the day with him tomorrow I'm babysitting Faith for Jess and such... so I'm coming up here and am spending the day w/ him again and then I have some play to go to with my Mom... ugh yeah kinda blows :) oh well its for Nicole. I guess right now we are waiting for the ''crew'' to get here and then were going to dinner for Talita's last night ='( I don't think this will really hit me until the next time we are all together and theres no Ta Ta... Ingunn's leaving in a month =( Hmph. Haha I'm done updating I need to go kiss the boy... wow :) I love you hunny 1<3 | post comment

[02 May 2004|10:47am] I started to update this and it deleted it... oh well. I guess I'm having a rough time dealing with some stuff? Haha... yeah w/e I have been spending a lot of time w/ Brandon which makes me happy cuz' well he takes my mind off of things. I can't play soccer for awhile cuz' of the bad sprain I was like I'm going to play and shes like well I will have to put you in a cast cuz' this is the second time it has happened... I was like hmm no. I'm suppose to be on krutches, but I think I'll pass on that. I'm @ my Dads God w/e.. ha yeah. Tomorrow I think I'm seeing Brandon :] Wow I love him I'm getting bitched at. later post comment

[29 Apr 2004|05:44pm] I'm sitting up at Brandons... except you know what really makes me mad is he sits and plays video games? I came up here to spend time with him... not his comp. =( ugh.. oh well I hurt myself again today, I guess I'm going to my Dads tomorrow... so won't be home this weekend next weekend I don't have school Friday which is nice =) whoot for that. I dont know what to write about post comment

update [27 Apr 2004|05:52pm] [ mood | sad ] I'm at Brandons sitting with the *fucking bitch* aka Josh. Hmm my baby bunny died... made me pretty fin sad =( oh well things happen. I'm suppose to go to my Dads this weekend, but of course he never calls me back... hmm cool Dad real cool. I'm seriously wondering why I even try anymore? I have a soccer game tomorrow which is cool I'm excited as I usually am for soccer... even with the knee and ankle... I'm doing AWESOME in school which is a plus for me. =) Lovin' it -Leah I Love You Brandon post comment

[25 Apr 2004|04:03am] you know things are bad when your friends turn slutty on you. Hmm lets see I miss my Dad a lot and I don't know what to do, 2 1/2 weeks w/o calling me... kind of hurts, no actually it hurts like hell. I think I might just take a break from things for awhile... mmk I don't know what I mean by that I just feel like sad? I cried in front of Brandon and yet him holding me didn't make it hurt as much... I love him I truely do. He sticks by myside even when I'm bitchy and moody and sad and happy =)Alright I guess I just needed to vent a little. Things absoltuly suck, the best alchol couldn't make this better =/ fuck it. Now I'm really done bitching... g'night -leah post comment

[24 Apr 2004|11:42pm] I haven't updated this thing in awhile, I guess I don't have it for the rest of my days living with my Mom ''Its Evil'' haha yeah fucking bitch. Lets see I have been spending a lot of time with Brandon and Jess lately which is nice... and Dank Andy and Larry =) whoot for them. I'm hanging out at Brandon's w/ Nicole right now and such which is nice because we havent hung out in awhile... I don't know what to write about besides things have been rough lately =( I talked to Ashlynn which made me just about cry... I miss her so much like my heart hurts w/o her. I stayed the night at Jess' last night we had Sat. school today 4 1/2 hours... mmk fucking bitch ass school. I'm done... c'ya later I'll update this like never. <3 post comment

[13 Apr 2004|09:36pm] looks like i'm crying myself to sleep tonight... </3 =( * I Love You 1<3 | post comment

ughhh [13 Apr 2004|07:12am] [ mood | sick ] [ music | the radio blah blah shut the fuck up. ] I'm staying home sick I feel even worse? Ugh =( This deff. isn't what I would call fun. I think I'm going to watch chick flicks all day and sleep the day away<3 I look shitty too =( mmk. I can't see my boy today due to the fact that I'm staying home from school... that makes me rather be in school and just deal with the pain in my ears and head =) and the stomach whoot. I miss you. I'm getting my hair done I guess Friday after school, should I cut it all off? I'm thinking about it, I love my long hair though =) ok back to sleep for me, c'ya -me=( -<3YouSoMuch- post comment

[12 Apr 2004|10:44pm] i'm on the phone w/ Brandon... w/e they put me on is making my stomach hurt more & very tired. wow it really sucks... Dad...? I'm glad to hear from you =( psssh I'm glad I matter so much. mmk I was thinking about things and this sucks right now =) good night -me post comment

sick =( [12 Apr 2004|08:27pm] [ mood | shitty ] [ music | watching a movie =] ] I ended up only going to school til 1030-11? I felt so sick... so did Jess so we went back to her house and took naps then my Maja picked me up and I went to the doctors... ugh I was in there for 2 hours =( 3 people in our school have mono so mrs.gadwood thought it would be a good idea to get tested... mmk I knew I didn't have it, but had to get picked in the finger and wait in hour just to make sure? All I wanted to do was go home and sleep, but instead I got to stay in the doctors office... =( I have a bad ear infection and my sinus' are all messed up. He told me I could have the starts of opendicitus(sp) ha yeah made me worry a little, I don't care though cuz' I know I don't have that. On the way home my Maja and I talked about Brandon, she likes him which is nice and shes alright with us =) whoot for her. I'm done writing I feel like shit, I'm going to go take a nap... -Leah I wish you could be here and hold me tight... and never let go. post comment

nothings going to make this right AGAIN. [11 Apr 2004|08:57pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | three days grace- I hate everything about you ] I have updated this a lot today... probably because this is the first day that I have done absolutly nothing. I feel like complete crap... it really sucks cuz' tomorrow I have to go to school no matter what. whoot for iss? not. the Dad thing is still really getting to me, I'm just going to let it all add up inside of me though, mmk. I miss Ashlynn I miss Brandon, I wish he could be here to help make me feel better. but.. of course this week I won't see him as much as we did last week =( pshh.. I have two burns on my hand from Saturday night, haha. ok this was really random I think I'm going to go take yet another nap.. whoot for being sick as fuck. -Akey <333You post comment

[11 Apr 2004|01:51pm] I just thought about something, I have in school tomorrow =( ughhh... post comment

[11 Apr 2004|01:15pm] [ mood | crushed ] ;; 10 memories 1. Kyle 2. Tping ;) 3. Honking The Horn, Right Nicole? 4. New Years. 5. Meeting Brandon =D 6. Dating Brandon. 7. Ashlynn 8. Soccer Enough Said. 9. Getting Lost =P 10. ''Random'' ;; 9 random favorites 1. Brandon 2. Ashton Kutcher 3. Soccer 4. Music 5. Skyline 6. My Friends 7. Clothes 8. Sleeping 9. FOOD. ;; 8 hobbies 1. Dancing 2. Singing 3. Music 4. Soccer 5. TV 6. Online 7. Acting 8. Sitting ^haha I'm A Loser ;; 7 friends 1. Lindsay 2. Nicole 3. Andrea 4. Jessica 5. Brandon 6. Brian 7. Keithhh ;; 6 things you dislike 1. Backstabbers 2. Lairs 3. My Friends Fighting 4. Fat People 5. Moving =( 6. Fake People ;; 5 turnoffs 1. When They Dont Stop Talking About Only Them. 2. FEET. 3. Bad Kissers... 4. If Your So Shallow And Only Make Fun Of People, To Make Yourself Feel Better. 5. If You Take Longer Then Me To Get Ready ;) ;; 4 things about you that you wish you could change 1. I Wish I Was Skinny 2. I Wish I Was Pretty 3. I Wish My Dad Wouldn't Lie =( 4. I wish There Was Less Drama In School. ;; 3 wishes 1. I Wish.... ! 2. I Wish I Could Learn How To BMX =) 3. I Wish I Had A Skyline. ;; 2 secrets no one can ever know except the person reading this survey thingy-mobabobber 1. My Names Leah... Oops. 2. I Miss Everyone @ My Faja's. ;'`; 1 person you want to spend your life with;'`; 1. Hmm. post comment

=) [11 Apr 2004|12:40pm] [ mood | sick ] Friday: Went w/ Brandon until about 830ish... him Josh and I went tanning. Oh I had to hear those two bitch about being burned... kind of funny ;) then we took Josh home and went and picked up Jessica and then went to Tiff's =) it ended up being a fun night, better then being at my Dads, except some people drank just a wee bit to much =P Brandon, Josh, Ingunn, Talita, Tiff, Jess, & I spent the night there. Bryan, Dank, Lar, Andy, & Ja Ja came for a little while. I don't know I'm glad I went. Saturday: We all woke up, wayy to early. I woke up next to the boy, that made me very happy. Aunt Teia was talking in her sleep, made us all laugh. We ate greesy pizza(my peice fell on the floor) dounuts and chocolate milk, mmm? then Jess Ingunn and I left and went tanning =) then Igunn and I went back to Brandon's and watched some movie together, well Bryan Brandon Ingunn and Myself did. Then I went with Jess, went to her house helped clean her room... took a little nap and then we got ready and went to Sara's and did our hair, stayed a little while... were little kids and played with the puppy. Then Bryan and Brandon asked us to come over and cook them food, so Jess did and I don't know what I did. Jess is a good cook from what I hear, she doubts herself to much ;). Then Jess and I went to Andy and Larry's... I played quarters... I always lose to Larry =( I drank WAY to much. That night was so fucked up, don't need to go into details... I stayed with Brandon =) Sunday: I woke up very sick... not very fun, I felt like I was going to die. Brandon and I just laid there until he took me home =) I went to dinner w/ my Maja left early cuz' I felt so shitty... Brandon came over around 7 we just sat in my room and talked about a lot of things... I'm glad we got it all out. Hes so caring, its sweet. He left and I went to sleep, orders from him because I felt so shitty =( Today: woke up way to early... should still be sleeping =) messed around with the comp. deleted a bunch of stuff, I can no longer download music =( oh well. Brandon called me on his lunch break... that was cute. Uhh Brian and I might hang out tonight if hes not to busy, which would deff. be nice =) Couple Thoughts On A Few Things: My Mom told me my Dad wasn't in where ever the fuck he was, I like how shes honest with me.. I hate when people lie to me. All I ever ask is that people are honest with me, and you know what I'm not feeling that many people are being honest to me. I guess I'm just upset about the whole Dad thing, because it was Easter and I couldn't be with my Family, I had to be with people I barely knew... you know that fucking sucks. I would of really liked to see Ash, Tena, Jim, Karrie, Bri, Mel, Nathan, Kev, Gma Kelly, and my Dad... that would of made a good spring break and EASTER. I mean I was ok with it I guess, because he was ''at work'' then come to find out... he wasn't? I am pissed off. I don't know what to even say because honestly that hurt so bad... oh well, I needed to get that out sorry. Danny, he said sorry to us all the other night except... no one knows if it was really him =( I miss him so much except I don't know what to think because he has said some hurtful things to us all, I just hope it was him. I want him to understand how much we all care and love him. =) Brandon, thanks for understanding me and actually listening to me. This past week, seeing you everyday was nice... I loved it. Yesterday you taking care of me when I was sick, you don't even know how much that meant to me. You mean so much to me, and the whole thing yesterday I'm sorry and I will work on that because you don't need to worry about that... you have no reason to worry about anything, I'll never cheat on you... I hope you know that. I guess I just needed to get that all out... sorry to the people who actually read my journal that must of been very boring. *Edit* I just noticed that its really the 12th and my comp. puts the dates on wrong... so the dates on my journal are all a day off =) -Leah post comment

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